Begining to let myself think :o)

I wish I didn’t hate making decisions so much.
I wish my coping mechanism wasn’t to close my eyes and pretend the world around me isn’t there.
I wish I could be everywhere at once.
I wish I could do everything.
I wish I could FIX everything.
I wish these valleys of calm and mountains of exploding life would balance themselves out a bit.
Is there always a right path and a wrong one?
Or sometimes are there two [or three or ten] rights and you just have to pick one?
Is one better and one best? Or are they of equal right?
How do you know which one to go down…
…when you’re not sure what’s God and what’s you?
And all your wisest consolers are giving you conflicting advice.
And so you pray. But you know that the decision to keep praying is one of those paths you were so unsure of—and is it the right one?
Cause to wait to decide is a decision in itself; and what if you wait too long?
Will you have missed it? Whatever it is.
Oh how I long to be sure.
So what do I KNOW? That I am HERE now. That I am called to LOVE now.

TODAY, Daddy; I will love the people I see today. And trust You with tomorrow.
Help me.
I do NOT know what I am doing. I do not know where you are leading, but I will TRUST in you.

“If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God,
who gives generously to all without finding fault,
and it will be given to him.”
--James 1:5

“Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose confidence is in him.
He will be like a tree planted by the water,
that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes;
its leaves are always green.
It has no worries in a year of drought,
and never fails to bear fruit.”
—Jeremiah 17:7-8