God is moving me to new views of Him lately.  I don’t even know how to express out loud what that means right now.  But, in lots of ways He is showing me that I am dirt and He is beauty.  There have been so many times when I have tried to “love” on my own.  The problem, I think, is that we tend to use this word far too flippantly.   I mean, the Bible says that God is love and if God is love, well, then on my own I have NONE of that in me.  I can’t love people because, well, I’m not God.  But, I want to love people.  I guess to do that means I need to make sure that God is living in and through me.  To do that I need to constantly be seeking Him…reading my Bible, talking to Him, listening to Him, hearing Him through others…otherwise all I’m giving people is a cheap imitation of what could forever change their lives.  I would hate to think that someone missed out on Love because I thought it would be ok to call myself a follower of Christ and still be living on my own strength. 

 

Amberly’s mom and sisters arrive today.  I cannot wait to see Marsha again and to meet Meagan and Sydney.  There is going to be a girl party at our house for the next week!  It will be awesome! 

 

Oleg Magdych just brought me my train ticket for me and mom to Donetsk.  Let me just tell you that I am a bit nervous about that.  The Radooga staff all leave on Thursday and mom and I will go alone on Friday night.  Roma says that it will be a good time for us—even if we encounter some problems.  I know he’s right, but it is still a little scary.  On the way there we will be in an open car room which is not like the 4 person room we were in when we went with Dennis, so it will be a new experience.  On the way home we will be in a 4 person room with Kolya, the speaker, who is pretty much amazing.  So, that will be fun too.  I think it will be good for mom and I on the way there because we will have some time to talk alone, and cool on the way back because mom will be able to spend some of the Ukrainians I know.  By the time we get back to Kiev she will be ready to die…I may have to give her a day off to rest…but, maybe not…I mean, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity—seize the day :o)

 

I don’t know if I’ll be posting while Mom is here…we’ll just have to wait and see. 

 

Peace Out!